Just here to vent
I know there's no solution there's no need to tell me in the comments. I'm just exhausted.
My mother is schizophrenic since I'm 7. Refuses treatment and doesn't believe she's sick. My dad stayed home to protect us from her and lost all his money/career because no family members wanted to help. No, there's no solution because I'm from a third world country. Not only is mental health taboo and never talked about but there's also no ressources to help. Unless you're rich and ready to put 5k+$ a month to commit her full-time in the hospital, there's nothing to do.
Now I'm in my 20s and I live abroad. I'm just so exhausted because, though I am relieved of not living with her anymore, I just hate what my future holds for me. My family has now a bad financial situation which is why I studying to go into a career I don't particularly like so that I can make money to support my parents. They have no home and no income so their retirement is on me. On top of that, I just see no solution with my mother, the only way this will end is when she'll die and that's horrible, for her and for us. So I'm just looking into the next 30+ years as an exhausting burden. I feel like I'll never be normal or allowed to have a normal life until she dies and I'm so tired already.
The situation has been like this since I'm a kid, it's all I've ever known and the fact that I won't be liberated from it until I'm 50 years+ is exhausting and depressing.
I just don't know what to look forward to anymore.