help with interpretation???
hi! it's my first time asking for tarot advice, so i don't really know what i'm doing. for context: i am a trans man, but i am not out of the closet, as i just cant find it in myself to finally come out and be myself, but lately i've been feeling like it's finally time, but there is something stopping me. it's really late at night, and i was on pinterest looking at spreads and card meanings (i only just got my first deck a couple of months ago and haven't used it a bunch, so i am trying to ease my way to it). lately my cards have been... kind of annoying me tbh. they always seem to say the same stuff that i am already aware of (new beginnings, breaking free, good things coming, etc. etc.), usually good things, but that don't help me. so i finally got fed up and decided to just ask directly what is fuck is wrong with me, what is stopping me and how the hell can i solve it. the first card flew out almost INSTANTLY, and it was the four of wands. i kept shuffling and the strength, the carriage and the lovers flew out together after a minute or so (not sure if that translations are right, my cards are in spanish lmao). i didn't remember at the time but i had completely organised my cards a couple of days before so it makes kinda sense that those three would come out together. unfortunately reddit isn't letting me upload an image, otherwise i would put one :(( still, I don't know what they mean. i kinda interpreted the four of wands as my cards being happy that i am finally asking for something definite and concrete, but i do not understand the other three. could someone help me with this? what the hell does it mean? should i shuffle them further (as they were organised) and see what comes out this time? thank you so much in advance!! <3