Essential tremors gone too bad
I am 21yr old and I have cervical dystonia when I was 16yr it's get started first i got migrane attacks for 6 to 7 months and after that my neck is getting hurt after some day neck started shaking or head , I don't have any idea what was happening to me. I get isolated and depressed because I can't communicate in public due to this reason. I told everything to my parents and they take me to a psychiatrist then he give me some medicine i don't know about that and started taking it.next day at school i slept in class and teacher screwd me then I told my parents. They throw whole medicine inside dustbin after some day some my family member told my father to take me to a neurologist. At that time my neck shakes uncontrollable and I got 6 to 10 panic attacks every day , the doctor did my MRI and nothing was found unusual. Then he says that I have cervical dystonia and essential tremors. He give me pactine 2mg 12tab a day , 0.5mg clonazepm once a day , tryptomer 10mg at night and ,mozep 2mg at morning total 15tablet a day. It make my Nervous system slow but the pain tremors are 50% reduced. I took these medicines for 3year but I didn't get any good results after that my father gets transfer from my city to another and my whole family get shifted. So I found that I get addicted to one medicine in this 3yrs that is clonazepm (benzo) so after i shifted to new city I take an appointment to a neurologist, I told everything to him and he says that you don't need 15tablets and he just give me 3 tablet a day 1.Propanol 40mg 2.clonazepam 0.25mg 3.vitamin B12
And this works wonderfully I feel like i get cured at least 80% I took these medicines for about 1.5yr and (vitamin b12 was stopped after 2months) just I feel was sleepy all day . i don't go to college at that time I was in drop year after 12th standard i didn't join any college yet for my graduation . So after 1.5yr of taking this medicine I told my doctor that I feel sleepy all day and can't concentrate on anything so he just lower the propranolol dosage to 20mg but I didn't notice such diffrence in my health condition (tremors) I feel the same as when I was on 40mg and my sleepiness also gone. So I continued 20mg propranolol and 0.25mg clonazepm but after a year I feel extreme anixtey idk why and doctor changed the dosage to 0.5mg clonazepm but anixtey didn't stop . Now 6months ago I joined a college but I can't able to sit in the class properly means I get too tired and my neck keep spasms all day my back hurts more and anixtey also get increased with tremors my legs are getting shaking as well now. My whole body pain specially neck and back I keep streching all day. I don't know what to do now. I think If I go to propranolol 40mg it will work.
Any suggestions any doubts and anything to ask to me to my hell like story please tell.
I am so grateful to that person who read my story and still here ❤️