Need Help with ADHD and My Programing Career
Hello everyone. I really need some guidance and support.
I have started to believe that I may have ADHD, although I have never been formally diagnosed. In Pakistan, proper diagnosis and treatment options are limited and often too expensive for me to afford. Still, I experience many of the symptoms, and they have been affecting my life deeply.
I completed my Bachelor’s degree in Political Science from 2017 to 2021. After that, I planned to prepare for the CSS exams, which are considered a major opportunity here. But I have always struggled with spelling and writing English essays. I tried for years to prepare, but because of this difficulty, I feel like I lost valuable time and direction.
Recently, my uncle, who is a programmer, encouraged me to learn coding so I could build a stable career. He believes I have the ability to succeed and suggested I start with C# and work toward becoming a .NET developer. I want to believe him. I want to believe in myself too. But the reality has been very hard.
After so many years focused on a different path, I am now struggling to learn something entirely new. It took me two months just to go through part of an eight hour YouTube course, and I have not even completed it yet. There are moments when I feel a spark, when I can focus and things suddenly make sense, and I feel alive with possibility. But those moments disappear quickly, and I fall back into procrastination and frustration.
I have tried medication like Ritalin. It helps me focus for three or four hours, but afterward I feel completely drained. If I take it for several days in a row, I crash hard and spend days unable to move, eat properly, or even step outside. It feels like I am stuck in a cycle of brief clarity followed by deep exhaustion.
I am honestly scared. It feels like my future is slipping away while I am fighting battles inside my own mind that no one else can see. I want to work. I want to learn. I want to build a life where I am not constantly disappointed in myself.
If anyone has gone through something similar, especially with ADHD and learning programming, I would truly appreciate your advice. I would also be grateful for any C# or ASP.NET resources that are easier to follow for someone who struggles with focus and consistency.
Right now, I feel lost, but I have not given up yet. I am still here, still trying, and hoping that someone can help me find a way forward.