Do you ever struggle to notice physical sensations?
I'm a musician but I never learned how to sing properly. I tried at various points in my life and failed. This time around I promised I would stick with it and keep trying no matter what. But, again, I am showing little (or possibly no) progress. This is despite the fact I have just had my 10th lesson and have put in countless hours practising.
My teacher describes bodily sensations to give me instructions. She will say things like "breathe into the back ribs," "push the air forward", "sing down into the body," etc. The problem is, I don't seem to perceive any of what she describes. When I breathe in, for example, I don't feel my back ribs at all. And when it comes to the other instructions, I either don't feel it or don't exactly know what it is I should be feeling.
She has told that I am the only student to ever to tell her this. She is also perplexed as to why I have so much difficulty, because she tells me that to her the sensations are very obvious. Something she told me at the very start was that without getting these feelings, progress is not possible. That is now something she does not repeat. Instead, she now just tells me to visualise certain movements, such as my back ribs expanding.
She has not told me that my progress is slow or non-existent, but she has also not told me of any progress I've made either. Suffice to say this has not been a pleasant experience and I feel like I am uniquely defective.
Have any of you ever experienced anything like this? Could it be my CDS at play? I am wondering if my problem with attention could be what explains this, but from what I have read CDS does not seem to affect interoception.