Imposter syndrome/audio processing disorder (APD)
Hi, so I'm a 23-year-old male and I've been in the Deaf community for about 5 years as my nephews are both Deaf. About 2 years ago I got an exam with an audiologist because I started noticing difficulty hearing significantly and loud tinnitus. At the time he said my ears were normal with mild SNHL. And for a signal to noise ratio, moderate loss. And he was on the fence. If I have hearing loss or audio processing disorder so I started addressing myself as hard of hearing. And I just went in again for my test and somehow my left ear was doing better than 2 years ago. And he's leaning more heavily towards potentially audio processing disorder. And now I'm curious if anyone else has a feeling of imposter syndrome that their brain says either " your hearing isn't bad enough or because you were born hearing you don't belong" or "omg youve been lying to people for years". And I'm just curious if I would still be part of the Deaf community as it appears I may not be actually losing my hearing. From what I've heard, I would still be somewhat because my nephews are Deaf. But I'm for lack of better words. Wondering if I'm still welcome in the community.