First time seeking her
I was a Classics major in college and studied the Greek pantheon. However, I was always a bit fearful of Aphrodite because of her sovereign power and because of the ways myths gave warning. Growing up in a Christian household, I never quite connected with that religion (despite trying) but when I discovered the ancient gods, I felt like I rediscovered part of my soul.
Recently, I’ve been exploring my own spirituality and at last, decided to connect with her. Since doing so, I have been filled with such a soft, loving maternal feeling. As if she is softening me, my grief, and elevating me through my connection with her. When I first decided to seek her, I immediately received two downloads. “Daughter, you have avoided me” and “when you care for yourself you honor me”. Coming out of a deep depression, I felt like she is softening the grief and giving me permission to nurture myself again. I’ve never received a “download” before and when I followed up with some free association writing, her voice came through even more.
To acquaint with her, I bought a small, white statue and painted it with color and care. Next, I wrote her name out in Greek, brought her a rose, a rose quartz heart, seashells, and wrote her a letter. And this weekend, I went to the beach and tossed a rose into the water from the shore. I watched the current take it out to sea and in my heart, I felt like my offering was accepted.
What has surprised me the most is the overwhelming feelings of softness and love. And healing. A warm, pink feeling radiating out from within—like coming home.