u/Prestigious-Run7156

Joined a Non-BLACKI tier 1 MBA around a week back. Been hellish ever since for several reasons. Not felt this suffocated in forever. Maybe it was also a mismatch between my idea of what MBA is like and the reality. Honestly, not even that much to do with the course, but about my ability to fit in socially. I'm unable to talk to anyone here, feel very isolated, and constantly having a racing heart.

I've always had mental health issues throughout my life, and now they are already flaring up pretty badly to be very honest. I'm having incredibly morbid thoughts and ideations.

My mom called and said please come back if you think this is unbearable. And I think I might.

The future scares me, about having to answer this to others, but I feel so numb rn. Rn for me everything is the bleakest it has been in ages, I'm regretting every single decision that made me give my entire life to CAT for last 1.5 years, and regretting my whole life in

general.

So I Will Start From The Beginning. I Am A 5/5/6 General Male. Gave Cat In 2025 and Scored Great Percentile(won't share it for some reason) But it was quite high. I got offers from IIM cap, sirmaur and Jammu Basically. I had my interview In IIM JAMMU on 3rd March. In Beginning of June I got a mail of Waitlisted in IIM JAMMU, and Got Ineligible In Sirmaur cause of less than 60% in boards. I Lost hope I really wanted an IIM. But I understood not everything has to go how I want to go. In End of June I Got A Mail From IIM BODHGYA. I got provisional Offer I took it. Paid the fees and Had to report there today on 1st. On 30th I got My dream college mail, IIM JAMMU. And I have made it in. I left bodhgya and paid for Jammu I will report there on 10th.

I Never Believed in God, but Now? I Do. Whoever is reading this? Guys you will make it too. Trust your instincts and Surrender. You did what you could do. Rest is On him. Be well and I hope everyone gets what they want.

Also I am Getting So Many Holy shits in comment,let me tell you something else too, when the shortlist came I was not offered Bodhgya. On 28th they called me on my phone not email a call, and told me, "You were ineligible but we had an internal meeting and we have decided to Send you an offer" I cried over the call and You know the rest

why the hell MBA colleges are so expensive, they don't even teach anything which is high skilled, are they sucking money just for their big campus, even low level clg have so high fees, MBA is just a trophy degree nothing else