Adderall addiction
This started after my divorce. I went from living with a very large family to just me and my daughter. I feel very lonely. I’ve been taking Adderall for a year now. I just keep taking more and more because I love the way it makes me feel. Sometimes I take up to 200 mg of instant release. The days I run out, I’m so tired I feel like I could die and my anxiety and panic attacks are off the charts. I want to quit so badly. I’m so tired of the ups and downs and the dependency and feeling like shit and constantly thinking about it. Plus the ungodly amount of money I’ve spent on it. I just don’t know how I’ll ever have enough days off of work and responsibilities with a teenager to quit taking it. It makes me so fast and I get everything at work done and everything at home done. It makes me a superhuman. But The withdrawal feels so incredibly awful and I miss who I used to be and I want her back . Adderall me doesn’t even like hanging out with my family or going out to eat or doing anything I used to like to do. Not sure why I what I would tell my daughter and mom for why I’ve been in bed for days when I quit. I don’t wanna share this with them.
I know it’s going to be miserable but does anyone know how to make it a little less so? I know meds meds meds but is there any meds that will make it a little less painful?