I hate how my phobia makes me see other people
I wanted to share how I experience this phobia in day-to-day life and maybe not feel so alone with it anymore. I remember having this as a kid, and I feel like the phobia gets stronger the older I become.
But first, I want to say that I am a person who sees the beauty in everyone, and I truly never think of someone as ugly or judge their appearance (normally).
BUT when I see a person who is wearing jewelry, it makes the person SO ugly in my eyes. I am extremely disgusted by what I see, and I am also sure that this person must STINK horribly and that their skin is oily and dirty.
Most of the time, I have to look away, but sometimes I look a bit longer because I'm surprised by how utterly disgusting something can look and how ugly people can make themselves. I almost get angry by looking at them.
What irritates me the most about it are my thoughts and feelings. I am a very positive person and never think badly about bodies in general, besides that... It's just the phobia that triggers those thoughts.
Okay now let me know if you can relate 🤝🏼