31 years old and feeling like I'm allergic to a "normal" career and social life. Am I doomed to be a hermit?
I'm hitting 31, and I've tried really hard to do the "normal" thing—get a stable job, make money, network, climb the social ladder. But every single time I try, I feel this massive wave of emptiness and suffocation. It feels like I'm wearing a suit that doesn't fit.
The only times I feel any sense of relief or "rightness" are when I'm completely isolated, working on deep psychological/spiritual stuff, or studying weird, hidden topics. I've actually had to cut off a lot of family ties because being around them feels like I'm suffocating under their expectations.
I'm scared that I'm just running away from responsibility, but chasing money and status feels like a hollow lie. Why does the "normal" path feel so chemically wrong for me? Am I supposed to just accept being an isolated weirdo?