Wanna get this off from my chest
I'm a student from reserved category (sc). This unfair benifit saved my ass and the more I think about it the more I feel guilty or feel like I'm doing something wrong. I never worked hard. I got 68.8% pcmb( in 2025( saved from 75% criteria). I decided to take a drop thinking I'll work hard this year but still wasted so much time. Time passed on bgmi,reels,reddit then Jan attempt came - 78 percentile. Lost all hope.
Still started preparing for april and again got 90 percentile. Adv didn't go well due to my low depth of concepts.
Even at this low percentile I'm getting some colleges( even some NITs!!) but I feel like a criminal. If i were a general category candidate my drop year would've gone in a total waste. My family's very supportive, they think their son cracked on of the hardest exam in india but they dont know I'm very avg and lazy.
I should've been consistent since day 1 so even at extreme case I still would've scored 96-98 percentile which is enough to get a good nit cse branch.
I'm the first one from my bloodline to do b.tech and first from my village to go to a NIT/IIIT, I should be happy but I feel like a fraud.!!