u/Quiet-Willingness521

I decided that I want to read more. I have been intimidated by books for literally years because I have a tendency to be immediately discouraged if I don’t understand something, and I’m kinda remembering why now.

I love sci-fi as a genre, so I got neuromancer. I started reading it a few days ago, and I’m feeling very very stupid now. I’m thinking maybe reading just isn’t something I’m very good at.

what does "mouth touched with hot gold as a gliding cursor struck sparks from the wall of a skyscraper canyon" mean? I feel like I can’t move past this because I’m just reading it over and over and over and I can’t figure out what it means? Am I just too stupid for this book? I got post it notes to write stuff down but I don’t even understand what I’m reading to be able to form an opinion 😂 thanks in advance!

Female 5ft 6 161lbs

For 2.5 weeks I have been on a diet, I weigh measure track all food (yes even spray oil and if I eat any sauces I weigh and measure that too) started drinking 2 litres of water a day and doing a minimum of 2 hours exercise including walking and very high intensity dancing to sweat all my calories off my fucking body

Well guess what. No changes. In fact I GAINED half a pound. I’m losing my MIND. My period isn’t due until another 10 days so it can’t be that either.

Stupidly a few days ago, I thought I felt smaller, but I’m fucking weighing the same and I feel pudgy again so I must be delusional with wishful thinking this was working.

Am I broken? should I drop to a 1000 calories a day?

I’m really confused.

Female 5ft 6 160lbs want to lose 30 pounds

I’ve been drinking more water, yesterday I had 3litres, 2 during a 1.5hour long high intensity workout, and 1L because I thought it would make me lose weight but then I need to pee every 20 minutes which is irritating.

so then I look up online why I pee so much, and people say “oh that’s because you’re not absorbing the water because it has no electrolytes, so you need to add pink Himalayan salt to your water” (which tastes absolutely horrifyingly disgusting) but then other people say you retain water from having TOO MUCH salt to begin with and you should avoid it?

What am I supposed to do? How can both be true? Surely they can’t?

I’m a bit scared to drink water now incase it stays on me and makes me look even fatter and weigh even heavier 😔

I’m already so depressed with my body. For the last 2 weeks, I’ve been eating between 1400-1600 calories a day and doing 6/7 days a week exercising for a minimum of 2 hours total a day including walking and high intensity dancing, and I’ve fucking gained 4 pounds.

I started obsessively weighing and tracking my food, even prioritising fibre and protein for the first time ever so I know what I’m consuming, I’m even avoiding social stuff for now so I can accurately track. The only thing I can think of is water retention at this point. I also feel SO flabby right after I finish my work out compared to when I first start my workout too which is really messing with my head. Why is water and exercise making me feel and look fatter?

I have a previous history of starving myself which I must admit feels tempting to go back to when I’m clearly not able to lose it in a healthy way.

Can someone help please I’m feeling really emotionally fragile

I just stopped mid HIIT workout to ask this because I feel SO rank.

I’m a 5ft 6 woman, weigh 160 lbs and I want to lose 30.

EVERYTIME i exercise, I can feel my body jiggling more and I want to SCREAM. It’s SO off putting why is this happening when I’m literally burning calories? I’m tempted to stop exercising and just start eating 1000 calories or a bit less a day?

How do I know if it’s working if I’m just jiggly all the time even when I am physically exercising and eating less calories? Why am I feeling more flabby 😢 I already hate myself I don’t want to hate myself even more while I’m TRYING so hard

I’m filled with complete anxiety that my efforts are wasted and what if it doesn’t work for me? I already avoid mirrors ffs I don’t want to feel worse!

I physically feel more disgusting and wobbbly than I did 40 mins ago when I started exercising