I hate Artist Alley!
After two years of running around cons, spending money and resources, ruining my mental health trying to guess what I’m doing wrong, feeling as a fruit vendor for literal pennies, had ruined any love I had for cons!
I feel such a failure. I don’t have the will to continue watching all the booths decorated so flashy and full of bajillion products, selling and earning so easily when I was lucky to sell one print.
I met and talked with the artists there! They were the nicest of people!! They were so kind and sweet and helpful yet my experience has caused me to loath all cons. And to see those artists in social media with their amazing successful booths only making that self-hate worse.
Was there room for improvement? Definitely. Maybe make more art? Make more fan art? Make online shop? Make keychains/pins and decorations? Sure…. But I don’t have the money to waste or the mental health to keep trying and failing until I get it right.
I feel such a fool.
I’m glad for the few fans I got to meet, and of course for the opportunity to make friends with these amazing artists… but I just can’t.
I better focus my energy on something else