any advice?
i’m a teen,
i feel exhausted
i struggle with religious ocd and i feel like i can’t have a “real” relationship with God or be a christian without feeling so much exhaustion and sometimes miserable.
everyday im constantly searching my heart,my intentions , and every thought
i wish i could just think and be myself.
God has taught me a lot but i wish it was like i am who i am but God is always teaching me things.which i think that’s how it’s supposed to be kind of.
but i just feel so exhausted how do i still maintain my relationship with God and be a true christian without feeling like i have to do all this or be super religous in order to feel secure in my relationship God and in to make sure i don’t go to hxll
when i try to back up then my mind tells me i must be lukewarm.
then it’s now convincing me that i don’t like God and im secretly evil and that God won’t answer my prayers because i have did something or i committed a unforgivable sin that’s why im not hearing God anymore i just want to be happy
everyday i get sad because it’s like oh i can’t do that anymore or oh i saw a video that says this artist does this or that so i can’t do this. i don’t not plan on leaving my faith i don’t want to be super religous.I LOVE God i don’t want a relationship without him but i just idk pls anyone some advice.
i know this isn’t what God wants me to feel but .. yea