u/Realistic_Stress5579

I wanted to ask a question but I’m not expecting anyone to actually fully know the answer.

So the reason why me and my family ever ended up becoming Catholic Christian’s, and believers of the Lord Jesus is because of an experience in our home we had some time ago. When I was very little, so I don’t remember this much, there was something in our home. A demonic thing that was in our house and causing a scare to my family, long story short eventually my mum went to a church and a press came and blessed the home, and since that day this house have been peaceful, and the faith is now in this home. However sometimes I fear that something like that will happen again, I’m scared when I sin that it’ll open doors for a possession to me or the house, maybe I’m overreacting but it’s honestly always on my mind.

So the question is, is this demonic stuff things that happen randomly or is it always a reason behind it?. I asked my mother if she knew how it started but she never did, and knowing that I fear that randomly one day it will happen again (so nighttime is a struggle)

I’m trying to learn Spanish, so much so that my end goal is to reach full fluency, like a native speaker. Does anyone have any weekly practice tips and things o should do everyday over the next 2-3 years so I can achieve this? And if it’s not 2 or 3 years how long will it take to get there?

This morning the very first thing I felt and the very first thing on my mind was my anxiety about going to hell. This is a daily fear and no matter how much I pray and no matter how many verses for comfort I read this fear about going to hell and being eternally separated from Christ is constantly with me and I’m tired. Over the past few months I’ve struggled to pray because I can’t focus and praying and reading my Bible being more discomfort and fear and anxiety more than it brings peace and joy and a happy time spent with Jesus. My relationship with Jesus feels fake forced and I feel so distant with him. This is why I fear hell, im always on my phone and any time i try to spread the gospel i shrink in fear and then i just feel like Jesus will reject me in the end. Im scared and i can’t enjoy life becasue everything i do I feel as if its an idol no matter what i do and i just feel anxious day and night that i will go to hell. And for my Catholic brothers and sisters I’ve consistently taken communion when I know I shouldn’t have. All I want is to have a happy relationship with him and have a confident hope of eternal life but I’m having dreams and my mind is swarmed with images of hell and judgment day of being rejected. I know and believe Jesus died for my sins and rose again but I feel lukewarm and none of my beliefs is showing in my life. I’m so tired man!