I feel awful but considering rehoming
For years I have dreamed of getting a dog, and after I went through a breakup earlier this year and turned 30 I decided to look into adopting a puppy. I ended up adopting a chihuahua mix a couple days ago and I hate to admit this but I am having severe puppy blues.
To the point that I am experiencing anxiety worse than I ever imagined and I cannot eat or sleep. I’ve never weighed this little. My puppy is so cute and sweet and is honestly a good dog and just acting like an 8 week old puppy - I just didn’t imagine I would have such an intense physical and emotional reaction to the change in my life. I’m doing it all by myself and I’m so ashamed to admit that maybe I wasn’t ready.
I feel like I can’t leave the house because I live in an apartment building and she barks and whines so loud any time I leave the room. She naps/sleeps in the crate but I’m really overwhelmed that I can’t leave my house. I also live in a city where I can’t walk her until she gets all of her shots, I didn’t realize this until after I was approved for her, which means we are essentially cooped up for the next 2 months.
I feel a lot of shame and guilt but I am seriously considering rehoming her while she’s still young and not so attached so that she can have a better life. I do not feel connected to her and truly feel like it would be what’s best for me and her. I now think about my life with dread and just wish I never put this puppy in this position. I don’t think I’m a dog person like I thought I was.
I was thinking about reaching out to the shelter and offering to foster her until we can find her a new home, it’s a popular rescue and I would imagine they had other potential adopters interested so I feel like if I act now I could try and remedy the situation. Does anyone have advice or words of wisdom