Is it healthy to make big commitments in order to avoid suicide?
Hello. I 19F am suicidal. This post is not a suicide note or anything and no I am not planning on going through with suicide anytime soon.
I’ve noticed that I tend to make big commitments in order to avoid going through with suicide. I had a dog, and i refused to commit because i didn’t want anyone else to take care of her. she passed away my senior year of high school. Earlier this year i started feeling hopeless and useless and like i had no purpose, so i adopted a gecko. now im feeling a bit hopeless about my future and i told myself, “well i can’t do anything. i have to take care of my gecko.” i’ve done this with a few other things as well until they expired, but these are my biggest examples.
is this a healthy practice? am i a punk for trying to avoid it? is this some form of animal abuse? is this normal?
i apologize if this isn’t the correct subreddit to post this in. i just want someone to talk to me