u/Safe-Concept-3991

Sometimes I feel like I have become a worse person since I started medical school almost a year ago... I feel like I no longer have joy for anything or anyone. At this point, I feel like the only thing motivating me to study is how much I fear failure, and not particularly any love of the material. I was unable to make close friends, don't really find the mandatory lectures helpful (I mostly learn from third party resources), and I am just tired all of the time.

I feel like everyone else in my class is enjoying medical school a lot more than I am and I feel like a total freak. Is it normal to feel such a lack of energy and sadness during medical school?