I need advice as to how I'm going to make my next confession.
Long story short - over the last week I've fallen into an old addiction that I thought I'd overcome, primarily with regard to adult content. Not like I've indulged a little and felt guilty - it basically took over my life for the last 5 days. I know that my mental and emotional state was severely distorted but I can't use that as an excuse. I occasionally confess a lesser version of this sin but how do I tell the priest that something like this took over my life? This hasn't been an issue in years and suddenly, out of nowhere, something in my brain just flipped and I'm trying to understand why.
For context I've dealt with severe clinical depression and other mental disturbances for most of my life but they've been in remission for the last year. The bad thing is that throughout this I felt nothing. Not just a lack of guilt - a total lack of emotion. Like I was running on autopilot. I haven't been that numb to emotion in years. No emotion, no empathy, no conscience.
The only reason I had the wherewithal to recognize the problem is that for the last 5 months I've gone to weekly confession and I always take time to reflect on the week out of habit.
I don't know how I'm going to talk about it. I'm worried that I may be denied absolution - worried in the sense that I rationally understand that what I've done is wrong and evil, not in the sense that feel scared or emotionally disturbed. I'm still having trouble feeling anything.
How should I go about the confession?