Does anyone else get emotional watching your team disappear?
I’ve been with the public service for about 5 years. I started as a student, became indeterminate, and stayed with the same team through undergrad and now grad school.
Today I watched multiple senior colleagues leave our Teams group because they’ve all moved to different teams. My senior colleagues had their WFA rescinded after SERLO. I was never invited to do SERLO. I'm the only one on the team being laid off and this morning everyone left our team gc to move on to their new teams.
One after another it was just:
”___ left the chat.”
I know this is normal in the public service, especially with all the reorganizations and workforce changes lately, but I wasn’t expecting it to hit me this hard.
I’m fully remote, so my team has basically been my connection to work for the last few years. Seeing everyone I’ve worked with and learned from leave makes it feel like everything familiar is disappearing. I actually cried today, which surprised me. I felt completely alone in the abyss and realized that I'm going to be by myself without a team for a while.
I’m aware I probably have attachment issues, so I know I’m taking this harder than some people would. But it genuinely feels like the end of a chapter. These are the people who watched me grow from a student to an indeterminate employee, and now I’m the only one left from that group.
Has anyone else experienced this? How did you adjust when your entire team changed around you?
I’m not really looking for career advice—just wondering if anyone else has felt this way, because right now it feels surprisingly lonely.