My experience with young hearts
Hello everyone 👋
I don't open reddit that much or share anything at it really, but recently I got a notification from this sub and I really wanted to share my experience since I can’t talk to anyone about this movie.
I know it's too long and most of it is about me not the movie but I hope at least one of you would read it all...
Basically I watched the movie about a year ago and I couldn't stop thinking about it ever since...
I might sound corny but I really relate to Elias in some way or another I saw my younger self in him and I'm not the kind that cry during a movie or a show but I still cried watching the move, for me it wasn't justa "tow cute boys falling in love" storyit was much more.
Since I was a teenager I always felt there was something wrong with me. That I don't belog, different than everyone around me especially when the other boys started taking about girls an me on the other hand was having feelings for other boys but of course I had to either put the straight guy mask and talk with them or when I get older I started to act that I'm religious and not engaging with the conversation at all.
And I struggled alot while growing up didn’t know who I am and was afraid of my own feelings especially when I started having a crush on one of my friends an I still have to this day but I can’t say anything to anyone since I am in the middle east there’s no way I would be able to say anything or to even to hint to him about that crush and for the longest time I felt like shit I was so depressed I always trued to deny it,until I saw a random edit on Instagram for Young hearts, I thought it was just a usual coming-of-age movie so I watched it. After seeing Elias fighting his feelings, denying them, And finally having the courage to come out and saying them outloud I was speechless I cried like ALOT and I realized that I'm gay no matter how I pretended not to be or how much I try to change it I'm still gay.
The movie made me accept myself, I saw my younger self in Elias and wished I was in another country were I could be myself but at the same time... accepting myself made me so much more comfortable with myself and with people around me (of course I didn’t come out to anyone but myself) I also wrote a story and kept it to myself it was just my way in coming out to myself.
And thanks to this movie I'm now able to admit it I'm gay evenif I triednot to be I still am gay
I'm so happy I could finally share this *anonymously and online only* but still it counts Ig 😅
P.s this is the first time I say it to anyone