u/Scary-Wallaby7553

I feel like I'm recalling a past life. I've been getting fragments of feelings and memories over years and I'm starting to understand them. I believe I was once a slave to a man in an high ranking position and a deeply respected gentleman. I believe I was passionately in love with him and he loved me back, but I also believe he kept his dominance over me to keep me in my place and to protect me, and that I often took risks to be with him that would sometimes have me punished. I believe I died young and that it wasn't natural or an accident. I think I died violently at the hands of another man who was jealous over how I was with my master and tried to force me into performing with him the same way I did with my master and I refused and that was my death sentence.

There's a lot of intense feelings and my own personality that backs up that I am the submissive type who wants to please others over my own needs and that I'm less of a leader but more of a follower, which would fit into the life I believe I once lived. I felt intense fear in certain rooms at the age of 3 as well as other mixed feelings at that age I didn't understand and it also felt like someone was gripping tightly at my throat, it would become more intense the more I pushed myself to enter the room until it became so overwhelming that I'd race out of the room dizzy and barely able to breathe. I also fear any kind of conflict that even just being yelled at or having a hand raised above my head causes me to immediately back down and cry uncontrollably, yet other certain acts I don't fear but I find tolerable and even pleasurable. Could these all be signs of a past life or is it just my imagination? I'm actually quite curious to know a bit more on the subject and how I can find out if these are past life memories and if the person I am now is because of that past life.

Is there a way I can find out who I was in a past life? I've been having fragments of feelings and memories over many years that have led me to believe that I once lived a previous life as a slave, although not one who was mistreated. I believe I deeply loved my owner and would sometimes take risks just to be in their presence even if it meant punishment. I also believe I died young, I don't recall how but I don't believe it was natural and that it was a brutal death.

I myself am a submissive person, always giving way to please others ahead of myself and to follow in their shadow. I fear conflict enough that it makes me cry and shrink away even to just be shouted at. I've felt kinks and intense feelings from since a very young age and feared severe punishment if I broke certain rules and ventured into places that I was forbidden to go near yet felt a deeply pleasurable experience from it.