u/Scary_Training_4699

Hey guys, I’ve been kinda stressed out. I joined IM because of h/o. I matched rather poorly without in-house. I still have a lot of resentment with the match and hate my current program (however I’ve been faking it and they’re buying it) I’ve been looking for research but nothing. I am a USMD PGY1.
Program is not really supportive with fellowship… refused all aways. I’ve been kinda down and don’t really know what to do.
All steps around average.
I feel like my career for a competitive fellowship is pretty much over. Any advice would be appreciated. Should I reapply in the match?