Thoughts of a teacher at the end of ECT 2
I’m a secondary RE teacher in a good school, good leadership and behaviour issues are next to none. If I had to critique anything I’d say because of working in an “outstanding” school, there’s a constant strive for perfection. Learning walks always pick out something, another SLT member justifying their position with a new initiative, but generally I keep my head down and just get on with it.
But I am so tired. I am exhausted. After 2 years, I don’t know how much longer I’ll do this for. Which is heartbreaking because I love to teach. I read posts like this when I was training and thought “that won’t be me” but the rose tinted glasses are wearing off.
More specifically, I’m tired of being tired all the time - coming home and having no capacity to make decisions, little patience for my partner or family, no energy to make plans (I also feel like I’ve developed memory loss? Since starting this job?)
I guess my question is, does it get better or is this just it? Is there anything I could be doing to better my experience? I don’t work at home or stay late working so I’m struggling to pin point what this is :(