u/SecondStar625

Having a specific idea in mind for the plot, but struggling to write it because that's not how you remember it.

Accidentally making your kin's POVs much longer than anyone else's because they're easier to write.

Not working on your fic because you're spending your time journaling about your actual kin memories instead.

Is anyone else like this? 😭 I thought being fictionkin would make it easier for some reason.

Regulus of 1976,
If you don't break free now, you'll die suffocating in your own chains.
-Regulus of 2026

Yes reaping day :/

Also sourcecall for any Hunger Games kins here

I hate my grandparents so much. All of them. Pollux and Irma and Melania and Arcturus. Especially Arcturus. I can't stand being middle-named after him, by the way. Ugh.

Part of the reason is because it was always so hard for me to hate my parents. No matter how abusive they were, they were still my mother and father. I couldn't bring myself to accept that they were naturally such cruel people. So I blamed my grandparents instead. I told myself that my parents only treated me badly because their parents had messed them up. Therefore, it "wasn't my parents' fault."

Grandfather Arcturus, though? I have reasons to hate him directly too.
He was the one always encouraging my parents to be worse. He told my father that it was "unmanly" to let my mother do most of the punishment. As a result, Orion changed from neglectful to life-threateningly abusive around the time I was 16.

I bought a shirt and my sister said “I know you only got that because it’s something your fictional boyfriend would wear.” 

I was like, “What do you mean lmao?”

She responded, “Regulus duh because you’re so obsessed with him.”

I said “No way, I just relate to him, I would never date him.”

She doesn’t believe me. 😭 

I feel so uncomfortable that she thinks this because the idea of me yumeshipping with myself feels super weird. It also makes me really dysphoric because the idea of me being in a relationship with someone usually implies that they’re a separate person from me.

^(Disclaimer here: I don’t have any problem with other people yumeshipping with themselves, I just find it weird when it comes to) ^(me personally)^(.)

Please AMA or tell me which one you would rather me make more posts about.

Hi, I'm Reg, and I'm new here. I mainly post in the fictionkin subreddit but joined here because I can tell it's supportive of those things.

Random things about me

• FtM, he/him
• Pansexual aroace-spec
• Fictionkin with 4 fictotypes
• Questioning nonhuman (otherkin or therian)
• Fanfic writer
• Deep in the Marauders fandom but I do not support JKR in any way or engage with any official content
• Also in the Hunger Games, Riordanverse, and part of the Grishaverse fandom

Or if you identify as otherkin/therian because your fictotype has a spiritual connection / strong association with a specific species (which is actually something I'm considering right now, but idk if that's because of the kin or just a coincedence because the animal matches their personality)

So yesterday I made a post saying that I kin a version of myself from a ghost AU. Now, I've confirmed a specific fanfiction that I'm from.

The good thing about finishing the fic is that it answers a lot of the questions I had about what happened to me and how I ended up here, etc.

The bad thing is that it was devastating to read.

The premise of the fic was that I was a ghost helping an investigative journalist solve my murder. I developed romantic feelings for him, and he did for me, but we couldn't do anything except imagine what it would've been like to be together if I was still alive. It hurt.
We eventually solved the case. My murderer and his accomplices were arrested. The thing that was tying me to the physical world as a ghost was gone.
So I said goodbye, and then I moved on.

Reading this from my lover's POV was awful. He cried and begged me to stay. He became depressed and tried several different ghost summoning rituals in an attempt to bring my spirit back. But I was gone from the living world for good.

It's so conflicting. I felt so happy and peaceful when the "moving on" was actually happening, but reading about it was the opposite. I promised my lover I would wait for him, wherever I was going after death, but it didn't seem to help. I was so content and at peace with leaving that I didn't realise how much pain I was putting him in.

So, you know how I randomly said last week that I (Regulus) would never become a ghost because I planned my own death and accepted it, made peace with it, blah blah blah?

Well, none of that is true because apparently I kin a ghost AU version of myself now!?

This brings up so many questions. I'm so confused. Like,

1. If I became a ghost after death, how did I end up reincarnating into this life? Was it only temporary? Did I eventually move on? Literally how?
2. What could've possibly made me become a ghost in this AU but not the other ones?
3. Why don't I remember anything about being alive from this universe? Why can I only recall being dead? Or is the ghost AU actually just a continuation of another universe after I died?

I hope this makes sense and I don’t sound weird but I probably do because I’ve never heard of anyone literally kinning a dead person while they were dead before 😭

I had a dream that I (as my kin) was playing in a Quidditch match. Most of what happened in the game was irrelevant; the weird part was at the very end. I was chasing after the snitch, and the opposing beaters were sending bludgers at me, but I wasn’t paying attention. (Typical of me lmao; I was a great seeker, but notoriously bad at keeping up with the rest of the game).
Anyway, I had barely caught the snitch when one of the bludgers hit me in the head. I’m assuming it knocked me out because the dream ended after that.

…But then I woke up this morning with a really bad headache. I swear I’m not making this up lmao. It’s so weird and kinda creepy. 😭

Is this just a thing that happens???