u/Separate_Fun2695

Release me

dil ko kya bataunga 😥💔

. I have applied to Lums and have yet to receive a decision. I will apply to IBA in round two if the decision still doesn’t arrive or if there is uncertainty about my attending Lums.

I wanted to ask which uni I should choose from the perspective of being hard of hearing/a little deaf. I make people repeat themselves a lot. I get really self-conscious and depressed when a conversation with a stranger doesn’t go the way I want it to. I’m working on that, and I’m getting used to it now. I’m trying to change my perspective, so don’t jump on me for that. I’m just a girl, you know.

I heard that the Lums environment is more accepting and “fun.” So I was thinking, would people there be more accepting than at IBA? I heard someone say that at IBA there are certain kinds of people, and it’s hard to have peaceful relationships with others when you have weaknesses like mine. I don’t want to get bullied or something.

At first, I was like im just not going to make any friends. but it’s also about the staff. Would the staff be patient with me? I hear stories from my friend who goes to IBA, and it honestly sounds really scary to me.

Also, are the professors at IBA more chill, or are they strict like a government Urdu teacher? Because I’m really going to struggle if teachers are not willing to provide accommodations for my needs. I got the feeling that Lums is more accepting because they had an accommodations section in their application and things like that. I felt peace for the first time because I’ve been really scared of this whole university/new environment thing. My friends are in Lums too, by the way, so that also makes me feel a little safer.

And I know I should face my fears and have courage and all that, but I swear I’m so tired, and I’m scared for myself. I would really be happy if the environment was better for me. I think I deserve a little peace of mind.

I’ve been dealing with this health issue for a while now, and it has gotten worse. During A-levels, I still hesitated to tell people about it. I would really like you to understand where I’m coming from. So yeah, I just wanted to ask: from this perspective, what would be the better choice for me?

Also, I’m from Karachi, so my family is here. However, I really want to have an independent life and try to work things out by myself because there’s always a parent or sibling with me. I know it won’t be easy either way, whether I go to Lums or IBA, but I’m trying to see where I could fit in better, where people are more accepting, and where the transition would be smoother. I also have family and family like friends in lhr so please dont say discouraging things like you should stay with your family. Thank u