u/SherbetExpensive6270

I have completed the syllabus of QA acs and eco

Revised it once quickly didn't solve much

Law is left I have to learn 2 more chp haven't done writing practice at all

I have decided I'll do a quick revision plus complete my law till 21 and from 22 to 28 I'll write an icai mock test in the exam environment

But when I picked a QA ques paper today just to practice I got blank and wasn't able to remember how to solve and I was taking too much time as I haven't solved much and I'm scared this will happen with acs and law as well so should I skip my mock strategy and completely dedicate these 10 days to solving writting practice to improve speed ?

Also it's my 2nd attempt plzz seniors drop your suggestions

Ik the concepts I just lack practice and speed

Guys I'm 19M in sybcom and ca foundation sept 26

Sometimes I just feel so lost am I even made for this or not

There are a lot of circumstances with which I'm bound ig

I gave may 26 by just watching lectures and never ever revised the portion coz my dad did a biggggg fuckkk upp by bringing my psycho grandma to our home (1RK BTW)

She used to create a lot of chaos due to which i stopped studying before 1.5 month I went through a lot that time she was mentally ill due to her I was not even able to sleep at night so many days my entire family used to wake up all night bcoz of her of going to lib or something wasn't an option so my may 26 attempt got ruined i scored 159 and in ac 35

Qa 52

eco 32

law 39

My dad is not educated and he doesn't earn much

Home is not a place where I can study so I go to my clg lib which costs me 3hrs of travelling back and forth but I can stay there for 8 10 hrs

But somedays just like today I woke up at 6 30 went to clg (usually it remains open on Sundays) got to know it's closed due to maintenance lost fucking 3 hrs and energy in travelling by train and also I'm 50% prepared for sept 26 ig but my main problem is law i just completed 3 chp ik the concepts but I can't learn the module language even if I do it takes hours to complete a single topic

And this time too my mom was not well she was admitted in the hospital and that costs me a month

I feel my home is the only thing that's stopping my growth

I'm fighting for this dream had no money to pay college and foundation regi fees and classes so worked 9 to 5 as a real-estate telecaller for 6 months last year in the 2nd half of the year all that money got used in home (around 85k)

Started my prep at jan

I'm fighting for this dream with ever fuckinnn possible way

It's just I don't have a financial support from my family (my dad ) so sometimes I feel should I just leave it due to all this and get back to that job (which i really don't want to do )

Why I wanna do this course ?

I feel it's worth it also my gf in the same clg passed ca foundation may 26

She's also a reason why I wanna do this course her parents won't accept a broke son in law ofc and her family is old school so I have to become successful asap b4 her family finds a boy for him😭 I mean till 25 I have to be a CA anyhow

I will fight till the very end I'll do the job again when I'll need money further but the thing is such bad days and the family problems demotivates me sometimes is this a sign to step back

I'm sooo confused please help i really wanna be a CA but it's just my life circumstances are not aligning with it

Ab sept 26 I feel I'll clear it mostly i believe there are 60 70% chances but my only fear is law and losing days like this

Thank you if u read my rant till here and also give me some suggestions