u/Silver_Calendar1719

So today was not good for my numbers. I’m 7 weeks today and this is my first pregnancy, so I’m kind of nervous. My sugars were pretty well controlled before pregnancy, which is part of why this is hitting me hard. My sugars were in the 200s after breakfast. I had a pastry this morning and I did give insulin beforehand, but later in the day my sugar dropped so I ate to bring it up. It was taking a while, so I ate more and forgot to cover it. My sugar ended up in the 200s for almost an hour. I’m so worried. I don’t even know how I forgot to give myself insulin. Something similar happened yesterday mid meal, but it worked itself out. I’m feeling really disappointed in myself because before pregnancy this would happen sometimes and I wouldn’t stress over it as much. Now every high feels huge and I’m scared I’m messing something up.

Left my first MFM appointment a few days ago and honestly I’ve been spiraling since. I’m around 6 weeks, this my first pregnancy, and I’ve had t1d for 24 years. I thought I was doing okay but after that appointment I feel terrified all the time now.
My A1C before pregnancy was 5.4 and last week it was 6.0 so I thought that was decent, but now every high or low makes me panic. MFM started talking about so many complications all at once like heart issues, stillbirth, shoulder dystocia, bigger babies even with “well controlled” diabetes, nerve damage, and so much other stuff and my brain genuinely has not stopped spiraling since.
She also mentioned my last EKG in the hospital didn’t fully look normal and was talking about how because I had for so long diabetes even if it was well controlled can affect the heart too, and she worried because pregnancy demands a lot especially because blood volume will increase she want to make sure my heart is strong enough to handle that and that scared me
The last night I went low, rebounded overnight to like 300, and I forgot to take my prenatal too and ever since then I’ve been sitting here feeling like wow I’m already failing as a mother somehow. I know I’m still really early and anything can happen, but now every time my sugar moves I get anxious and scared I’m harming the baby somehow. I’ve honestly just been wanting to cry since that appointment.

I’m really nervous and could use some advice.

I’m 6 weeks 4 days pregnant with type 1 diabetes. My A1C has been good, but lately every time I eat carbs my blood sugar goes over 120 at the 2-hour mark. That keeps worrying me because I don’t want to cause any problems for the baby.

What’s making me more anxious is I drop really easily. If I try to correct more, I go low. If I don’t, I run higher than I want. I feel stuck and I’m not sure what I should be doing.

I’m also really scared that these numbers this early on could affect the baby’s development, and it’s making me extremely nervous.

I have an appointment with MFM on Monday, but I’m anxious in the meantime. Has anyone else experienced this early in pregnancy? Did your numbers change like this in the beginning?

Any advice or experiences would help