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So I’ve really been working on my relationship with God over the past few years. I’ve gotten sober, moved to a new city, and got a new job. Everything has been wonderful and so easy, but now I’m stuck.

I was inspired to buy a house for the first time in my life. Never wanted one. EVER. Then, after a year of sort of subconsciously pondering it, I realized that I was ready to own a house. I felt like this was what God wanted for me. However, the actual process of finding a home has been ABSOLUTELY AWFUL.

I’ve made a lot of mistakes and have wasted a lot of money and have fought with friends and family over what constitutes a “good house” vs what I can even afford. I’ve learned a lot of important lessons about myself and boundaries and home maintenance etc.

Now I’m at this place of just constantly BEGGING God for clear guidance and I’m just lost. I thought, at multiple times, that one house or another was meant to be “the house”, but something keeps happening so that it falls through.

First: the house didn’t pass my mortgage lenders inspection qualification
Second: realized my agent sucked and had to fire her
3-6: sellers accept a different offer

And there’s one house that I kind of think I should get but it has some issues and my parents HATE it (personally I don’t feel like it’s that bad…it’s a starter home so…) and all I want if for a clear sign of what to do! Every time I lean towards making an offer for that house, I hear a no in the back of my head and I’m like is that my own doubts planted by parents or God?? I’ve heard so many “coincidental” sermons and daily readings about trusting in God and praying for guidance but I’m not finding anything!

I still have that feeling and need for a house, but I can’t seem to figure out what to do and I’m getting TIRED. I’ve been patient (lord have I been patient…) but my new agent seems to be getting tired too and it just sucks seeing EVERY house I’ve said no to just get picked up by someone immediately after I turned it down. It’s like is it me? Am I the problem??

Any advice? How have others navigated making big life choices while aligning with your faith?

I'm thinking of purchasing a house near nellie stone in the Hawthorne neighborhood. I've heard about how crime can be a block-by-block thing, but for the most part do people feel safe? Has anyone been mugged while walking around? Gunshots? Break ins? All over exaggerated? I'm the type of person who likes to go on long walks, so if Hawthorne isn't the neighborhood for that....