Just wanted to say, 2 months ago I decided I want to produce and record my own music…for fun…just for me. & this week I purchased my first item which was an interface that I got for cheap off Facebook marketplace.
Slowly but surely ! 🫶🏼
Im seeking validation
From anyone
Because hearing it from my self isn’t enough
Harder to believe even
Because it just feels like I’m lying to myself
Im seeking validation for
My hair
My eyes
My body
My sex
But most importantly for
My worth
My love
My aura
My mind
The silence is when it’s at its worst.
On slow Sundays or at the bar when no one hits on me and especially when the one guy isn’t texting me back.
Really validating myself
Is just to much work
I’m lazy
I’m scared
I like instant gratification
Because I have tried before and i failed
I tried and even thought it was working but then
I failed
Again
and again
and again
Then I’m forced to admit, that I was right all along
I was just lying to myself
-E.L