I’m afraid that I developed a too legalistic approach to the Faith.
Glory to Jesus Christ!
Honestly I really need help and I wanted to ask this Community because I have seen people usually giving great advice here.
Plus I’m not a native English speaker so I can’t really express myself well but I will try to communicate my problem as best as possible.
I used an Examination of Conscience from the FSSP and it was hard due to my Scrupulosity. Often I had the Feeling that I committed all the Sins there and eventually I had to find a new Examination of Conscience that is shorter.
Through this experience I started to realise that I’m losing myself in all those rules and oftentimes overthink and overanalyse situations. I also tend to be a person that is very uncertain and I often doubt myself wich makes it hard to come to a judgement regarding a certain situation.
All of this brings me to an argument a former Catholic brought forward and I have a hard time refuting it, he said something along the lines that if you want to follow the catholic faith then you really have to be scrupulous. I also read from some eastern catholics that they are really bothered by what they called the “Legalism” in the Latin Church.
I honestly think that this way of practicing the Faith is very unhealthy and damages my relationship to the Lord.
Edit: I forgot to mention that I used to think that holiness means perfectionism and while I now know that God does not except that wich is a huge relief honestly.