u/Slicksammy67

I’m 26M been living with my father since I was 17 I’ve had odd jobs here and there but never anything on paper, I guess you can say I’ve never had a real job.

I spontaneously asked for a job yesterday without even thinking about it because I might be partly qualified for it. The job is at a lube shop for vehicles. The job in question is doing oil changes, I’ve only ever done one oil change on a vehicle and it was supervised by my father.
I think I jumped the gun thinking I could do this job and last night I had a panic attack for the first time since I was a teen because I’m terrified I’m going to embarrass myself in public especially if I get the job and start messing up or having to ask for help.

The guy is supposed to call today about an interview and I’m panicking and don’t know how to calm down or what to do.
I want the job but I don’t at the same time because of fear and social anxiety.

I’m tired of living off my father I’m 26 and have no goals or accomplishments, I feel I’m a failure and disappointment to my family but I’m always too scared to try to get a real job and now that I did try and could possibly succeed I’m scared.

I do want to start making money and building my own life because I’m tired of rotting in my fathers house but I’m also terrified I’m going to mess something up and feel I’m still in a teenage state of mind when it comes to doing adult things.

One of my main issues is I’m a smaller guy and am insecure about it, I’m 5,7 and 120-130 pounds. I’m not a big masculine man and it shows and I feel I get treated differently because of it and that adds to my social anxiety and fear.

It’s already 4:00 P.m and my anxiety is at an all time high mixed with my nerves making me nauseous.

If anybody has advice or uplifting words for me it would be much appreciated.