Is my mission finished?
F33 here.
I would have never thought, 20 years back, that suffering so much was humanely possible.
I won’t enter into details and I know my English is not the best to tell stories.
So let’s simply say that as a child, I had a very loving family. I felt deeply protected at home, and it was the contrary at school, where I was bullied from the first day to the last.
Then my dad died when I was 17, my mother when I was 24.
Now I made the sum of everything that I’ve been through in this life, and I reached a critical point of loneliness and self-depreciation.
And since I have a strong belief in the afterlife (told in near death experiences), and that I know our soul embodies to improve, I think maybe it’s time for me to go.
Because there’s so much the body can take, but there’s a moment when you have to bow when you are defeated.
And I am pretty sure that if I meet my parents as I imagine there, they will be far from angry that I ended what was necessary.
Maybe my efforts in earth life mean nothing, the issues aren’t solved and I keep suffering day and night… but at the same time, my soul must have hugely evolved for so much to bear.