And we hit 4 consecutive...
I don't even feel like writing out the story anymore. Chemical 1 on my birthday in Jan, chemical 2 (not confirmed with tests, I didn't want to see the line fade again but my period was late and my boobs grew and hurt which is not typical for me at all pre-period) in March near my partner's birthday, chemical 3 in April (confirmed with tests), and now here comes the 4th. I didn't even ttc this cycle! Just happened to have one in the window because I expected to ovulate a week later than I actually did. Period not late yet, but had even more significant bodily changes (mostly in the chest) than any of the other three and this morning (dpo12) was a negative test (first one I've done this cycle - I could feel the hope building so I made sure to test because sitting around for days assuming it'll be positive on day14 was going to hurt more than just testing today and getting it over with) so I can only assume it's chemical 4 on its way.
Advice not wanted, I've already had investigative tests. I get my results on Monday, partner is getting his soon too. Hope not wanted either. I think I just needed to be heard so I can calm down before work tonight. Almost everyone I know had their kids first try cycle 1...
Thanks for reading, sorry you're here. And sorry that was probably a jumbled mess that made no sense.
UPDATE - Test results are back, no hormonal imbalances. Nothing wrong that they can find. I have polycystic ovaries but NOT pcos. They are now testing my partner instead and suggesting it's all just rotten luck or only 2 chemicals and the other two I didn't test weren't chemicals at all. Relieved but also nervous since nothing showed up but it still happened.