Does this sound like PNES?
I’ve had about 4 of these episodes over the last maybe 4-6 months, but the last 2 were only a couple days apart, and I am in a terrible place mentally (I am safe, just really struggling in my head) I have PTSD, depression, and anxiety (plus more but I feel those are the most relevant).
I’ll be lying on my back, and my thighs start to tense up until I basically end up in the fetal position. It’ll tense up like that and then release after a short time and then tense up again. When it’s really strong, my back will arch and my eyes close. I also will clench my fists, and if there’s something in my hand like my skin, I will nearly draw blood unable to let go. These last two times I have felt like I could breath during the tensing, which then makes it even worse because I get scared that I can’t breathe, which triggers my anxiety and then I tense up again.
I do have an appointment coming up with a new mental health provider but it isn’t until next week, and I just had another one of these episodes a few minutes ago and it’s really starting to scare me.