Is it normal for worry postponement and mindfulness feel forceful for the brain?
Hello!
I was in CBT for 3 months (had to stop because I have ran out of money for it now). My therapist in our last meeting said that I had to keep up with worry (thought) postponement, mindfulness and stopping daydreaming outside its reserved time. I wasn't applying them very well throughout those 3 months. Now I am trying to turn them into my brain's default habits, but it feels forceful. I had asked this to my therapist before and she said that it is normal because brain does not want to change its habits easily.
I am trying to be gentle, but nevertheless I feel like when I am doing my tasks I have to fight my brain to not be drawn to overthinking and daydreaming. It is weird because I do not come up with specific thought that I can delay. It is just that my body feels this urge that is drawing it to getting into my head. Am I actually fighting dissociation, could it be that?
I really want to take this break in therapy as an opportunity to practice skills I hadn't done very well at the time. But this feels so hard. Is it supposed to?