u/SurpriseSpecial6856

I've been job searching again, I've asked around for advice but its just so stressful the situation I'm in, I try not to trouble anyone I care about with my problems, My grandmothers health is declining and it seems like putting her in a nursing home with people who are better at caring for her than me isn't happening either... and its just adding onto the stress, The epilepsy, Dementia, The job search failures, and even denial of disability it just feels like I'm not allowed to have anything that would help my future just trapped in a prison I had no control from the start of all this

I've tried for years to find work in oklahoma, I'll say what my problems that may make it harder i have dementia and epilepsy and I cannot drive, but despite those things im willing to learn and power through it to work, its just i've never been given a chance, I want work that is simple to remember and easy to get to from where I live cause i live in midwest city, i just dont wanna uber all the way to almost texas for work, any suggestions or offers would be great

The truth is im genuinely afraid because i feel like my life has been forcibly paused and there is no way to unpause it, getting disability would help me relax more about my future but my epilepsy has been getting worse, the headaches have been getting worse, the memory loss has been more instant rather than over time now, and I'm scared of trying to survive alone, Jobs wont give me a chance, it could just be a bad job market in my state and unrelated to epilepsy but even still its another roadblock, heck i cant even drive because of the risk, I just needed to vent this

What causes your seizures?, Mine are generally caused if it gets too hot or struggling to breathe, even flashing lights causes mine on rare occasions

I've been trying to get disability pay since I was 12, I'm 28 now with no luck still and I've gone through 3 different lawyers, The excuse is always "Oh you've never worked" Ok I thought I was applying for the one where you didn't have to work but you still have to work for that too?, and its not that I don't want to work I've tried all my life to get work with no luck, Last year and half of this year I've spent trying to find to a job with no luck at all, I've even went to programs that help you find jobs if your disabled but I had seizure there no surprise I know and after they said there would be no point cause I'd be a liability for a job, So does social security even view epilepsy as a payable disability or am I just wasting my time on this again?