Eating by mouth
THIS IS A RANT! So I’m currently out of formula and have been forced to eat by mouth. I got a gj tube to do formula in my g tube (which does not upset my gastroparesis) and use the j tube as a back up if I have a big flare up and can use my g tube. But with a new insurance I have run into a problem with my doctor not sending over my orders yet and I have run out of formula. So I’m eating by mouth till I can get my formula again. But holy hell do I miss my tube feeds. Food causes me so much pain and vomiting. And I don’t think I’m getting all the nutrition that I need eating by mouth. I hate eating. I hate the act, I hate how I feel afterwards, I hate having to think about food and cooking. It was so helpful in my mental health to be tube fed and never have to worry about when I’d be hungry or what I’d eat and if it caused me pain or not. I have been desperately calling anyone I can to try to get things moving with my formula order but it’s just not working. I’m honestly wondering if I should just go to the ER and see if they can tube feed me there. I know that would be a waste of resources but my mental health is severely struggling 😭