u/Tera_Raahi

Ek gall yaad ayi ehtoh, ek bnde nu janda ohnu ek eheji kudi mili si jdo v kde date te jandi os munde di gaddi ch pesse rakh jandi ki tera kharcha hoya and munda da kmm vdiyaa si nale..... Kudi job krdi si.... But sala oh munda bekaar si ohde naal viah ni karvaya...bohot ohde dosta ne samjhaya par manya ni..... Bohot chngi kudi si..... Khair......

So eh chah mere bro(cousin) de ek dost di a.....

So ohda ek relation a ik kudi naal bohot purana maybe 10-12 saal purana hona....They belong to same caste and all...but ek problem agi oh same pind de a,koi backward ilakka ni tricity naalda ek pind a....so oh munda financially bohot strong a...kudi wale v welloff ne but enna strong ni.....Kuj saal pehlan munde ne tan abde ghrde mnaale viah lyi (bohot mushkil naal)and ohda father khud kudi waleya de ghr rista le k chl gya si but kudi da father ni manya coz ohnu problem a same pind hon di...(Jo hun adha shahr hi bn chukya)...so munde de father ne dubara koshish kiti but kudi da father ni manya....But kudi v bohot loyal a os munde lyi jdo v koi ohnu rista aunda kudi ohnu sidha akh dindia k mera ek lover a te j eh viah hoya ohne menu bhja k le jana.... But bhjon ala step ohna kde ni chakna...so munda v os kudi krke bohot chnge risthea nu jawaab deyi janda ....and he said j kudi mere lyi enna kuj kr rhia tan main ohnu dhokha kive deva..... Hun oh 30 de kreeb ne.... But lagda ni ohna da kde viah hona....munde da father hle v tyaar a ki j sanjhe tha gall hoje menu koi dikkat ni chahe pehla ohne ne menu jawaab deta si....saari gl kudi de father te khdi a es time....

Bc enne lok loyal kise nu mil kive jandea 🥀

In today's time, j tusi bilkul normal viah v Krna/krona you need atleast 20-30 lakhs if you aren't doing something lavish and all, just to fit in society.What are ur opinion on this....

Baki j vadda gift milje tan no problem 🤣(just kidding)

My mental and physical health is deteriorating, will be on leave for few days maybe......

Alvida

Today i went to one of my close relatives and there was a notebook lying on bed.... And menu a gandi adat notebook padan di... This was a new nb with only two pages filled.... At first page there was just intro "I am ----- writing about people who hurt me". I thought chlo kuj normal likya hona but pencho i froze when I read 2nd page.... She wrote a incident where she was se*ually a*salted by an old man....and this made her prone to other s*xual a*sault where she wasn't able to speak up..which still hurts her even the old guy is dead...she is the chillest person I have ever seen..like always laughing and making fun..... Still holding this trauma.......which hurt her even now...(Coz I think she wrote it few days earlier )..She's elder than most of people in this sub... Bc eddan v hunda?

These are her exact words:

To Unknown old guy who did first sex*al as*ault to me by making me hold his di*k in my right hand

⇒ I know you're dead now but you are one of the reason I hate my mom

All my severe health problems started with pain in right hand.

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I hope you are enjoying your time in hell

I am trying my best to forgive you but I cannot

I can never shake off that Seeing from my hand and that fear in my mind that you'll attack me again.

Your actions made me prone to other se*ual as*aults where i couldn't react or say anything....

(Ek main a jo har time low feel krda.....And she still laughs while dealing with this and a neurologycal problem)

Main ek jimidaara da munda.... Unj main kde kheti wall dhyaan ni kita bas eha pta bai ah meri peli a te ah wattan ne.....So kall bohot tha gademari hoyi jis naal seasonal vegetables and fruits khraab hoge... Te ethe kayian de interview v ayi ki sadda enna nuksaan hoya but yar comment dekhke bura lagya... "Tusi hanake o" "Rabb lekha jokha Krda" and all that... Chal jimidaara da nuksaan hoya but jdo ehna cheeja di shortage krke rate wadhe fer cheek sabhdi niklania.... Ek scenario lyo on avg. 1 acer da pind ch rate 60-70 lakh a... Te bohot waddi ginti kol 1-2 kille hi ne... Kehan nu tan oh crorepati ne but onda di income jor marke 3 lakh ni tapni sirf kheti toh and oh v kyi baar kudrati affat krke nill ho jandia. Selling the land koi changa option ni coz dedh crore nu dedh so hon ch time ni lagda coz financial education di bohot kammi a...So yar jattan naal eve eni nafrat kyo?..Jattan nu jo v subsidies mildia ohna naal fasal da rate v tan ghat rehda je eh subsidies remove kr den fer roti khani v amm bnde lyi mushkal ho jania coz of inflated prices....

Chlo tusi tan upvotes kite ni but main eh chah share kr reha 🥀 coz menu lagya eh share krni bndia.....

So eh kujk mhine purani gall ae...... I was active in punjabi genz sub and othe main ek meme post kiti si regarding ek "streak lost mails" ... Ki boys nu dms ni aunde but jdo eh dms dekhdea tan ohna nu lagda kise insaan ne ohna nu dm kita but oh hunde bot ne ..... (Sala character assa*sinate hona hun mera)... So dekh ke ik kudi da menu dm aya... We talked normally.... Oh foreign born punjabi si and same age si (hor kuj ni main dasda ohde baare) So let's call her shorty ...... So os din shorty naal chit chat hoyi and I asked her ki main tenu kall v text kr skda and she said yes..... (Maybe meri vibe ohnu theek lgi honi).....

So let me tell about myself main kde kise kudi nu faaltu dm ni kita..... J kde sahmneo ajje tan gall wakhri a but main eve v ni agli da khadah hi na shadda .... Ek do baar eh instance hoye a ki sahmneo kudi a dm aya and i talked to her for 5 mins and so ... And it's done completely (agli veer akh jandia 💔) (just kidding)..... I don't wanna creep someone ,j kise ne koi genuine gall kri and if it's done.. everything is closed.....((Hun ennak character build Krna tan bnda),(hun tak ehi a baki agge chalke j u/environmentalfan8390 , u/vehla_45, u/sau_putt_ warge bigad den tan gall wakh a (jk))

So let's come back to shorty, so shorty naal ek do week reddit te gall hoi than i asked her insta ...and she gave it.... So hun gall reddit toh insta te hon laggi .... Everything was going good and main thode risky text and reels v bhejda reha ohdron response v theek mil janda.... Etho tak her texts seem normal kuj forced text nhi si lag rhe....

Enne ch metho chak hogia feelings and main hor 1-2 weeks baad krta confess....and she rejected it ohne valid reason ditte si ...chlo i accepted it .....ohne pehlan hi apnia boundries baniyan si and i crossed it..... So jdo I was talking to her on insta ohne pehla kehta si I will block you someday bas bura na manni.....I was ok,,hle kehra block kr rhi a na hi main koi eheji harkat krni...but hun hogi si........so oh confession ale scene toh baadh bhi normal hi text krdi rhi i felt chal koina.....In the insta wale time frame menu attachment bohot hogi ohde naal so after that scene i thought appa left kriye social media.....main ohnu likhke bhejta ki menu attachment hoia te i think it's better to leave atleast detach hoju tere toh .....and I left social media ......for a week and so ,,and fer metho reha na gya and i texted her back...so ohne v text Krna shuru krta.....but some things changed after that confession ala scene hun ohde text forced jhe lagde si ,jo pehlan wali friendly vibe si oh khatam hundi jaapdi si.....ohne menu ek friend manya si and i thought too much....so social media teh wapas aun toh baadh 4-5 dina baadh main ek hor harkat krti(koi tharak ni bhori si koi normal gall hi hoyi si saleo).....koi waddi nhi par but main ohnu ek raah deta to block me....Do she blocked me on Insta and main kamla pehli baar block hoya I waited her text for whole day and jdo na aya tan main next day reddit te ohtoh puchya, she said she blocked me for that reason....I was like she's joking kyoki main pehla v ek do baar ohnu offend kita si(my nature)...main sirf offend Krna jaanda metho na tan koi ronda chup kraya jave na nhi russe hoye nu mnaya jave....oh pehla main pta ni kive mna lya...i thought hun v mna lu but at end realty check milgya ohtoh..(minta bohot kitia si🥀)...she said main tenu pehla hi akhya si I will block you and I did...you gave me excuse yesterday to do it.....chlo main narash hoya ,so main ohnu dubara bother ni kita ,hle tak ohne menu reddit toh block ni kita si fer krta hove idk and i deleted my old reddit account te ohtoh baadh eh account bna lya......

So main ethe ohnu mada ni bnauda she was very good girl....ohne menu eve laare ni laye and othe stuff ki timepass kri jave mere naal...galti meri si..ohne kita na kita khud nu blame kita ki ohnu gall enni wadhoni ni chahidi si. and real Convo was ment to be only 5 mins long but vibe match kri tahi she talked this long.....oh fer v bohot chngi si.....

Main kite na kite mann ch ohnu bura bna lya si but hun jdo main ohdi tha te a hun pta lagda oh kinni shi si....

Hun odun waadh i am changed....hun attachment hon toh dar lagda 😂 te eve jyada fark ja v ni penda kaase naal.....

Main real life ch kde try ni krya coz once a legend said "jaggi ve satho bhajj ni hona" (just kidding) I am alsi oh v jva sire da ,metho eve pkai ni hundi na hi menu chnga lagda ,so digital space was and is comfort for me....

Bas ehi si ajj di chah.......