i fell in love with someone i couldn't have
I just had the most gut wrenching dream i've ever had. I fell in love, in the most innocent, intense and beautiful way, something I don't think i've ever had in my life. We spent our days together, and I knew something was wrong with him, but I couldn't quite put my finger on it. He was small, much shorter than me. I would come visit him very often in the place we stayed, which now I can't recall. My last moments with him were him revealing to me we couldn't be together because of his congenital condition, of missing the proper proteins to heal any wounds or something to that effect… I remember the scene being quite traumatic, as I started having a bloody nose and my eyes started getting very glassy, and the last thing I remember is him wiping my eyes until I woke up.
I feel so heart broken, and so confused. I started really crying the moment I woke up, and it's even more so confusing because I'm in a relationship of almost 4 years, with intent to get married. I've never even been attracted to someone smaller than me, not that i'm picky, but it's not just my type... but in this dream nothing mattered at all. I know it was heart breaking but I can't help feel like part of me is missing now... I'm so confused and upset.. Please help me decipher this.