Third time unlucky and broken
This is my first post here - i just dont know where to turn. My first pregnancy turned out to be a blighted ovum which was a shock and devastating. The second pregnancy ended up as a missed miscarriage. I saw the baby and heartbeat at 7 weeks but was measuring 6 weeks and next scan showed no growth and no longer a heartbeat. Third pregnancy we made it to 12 weeks with everything looking great and thought i was out of the danger zone but nipt test showed downs syndrome. I am 38 so knew there was a small chance but never actually considered it to be a reality. I dont know what to do or why this is happening- all i ever wanted to be is a mum but I never imagined a life of potential struggle for my child. We also dont have much family around and it worries me that we may leave our kid on this earth without a carer. How am I supposed to decide what to do? Please dont judge me for considering options- i come from a religious family so already feel judged and I know I'll probably never be the same no matter what decision I make 💔