u/ThatGigglyGirl

Hi! I know this is a total long shot, but I just lost my American Bulldog on 7/30 and wanted to track down his breeders to eventually get another puppy from them when I'm ready.

I got him from a lady, who bought him directly from the breeder. It was almost 11 years ago, so the details I have are SEVERELY limited, which makes it way harder.

Here are the details I know:

- 1: I have one picture of my dog's parents and who I'm assuming is their breeder kneeling between them (his face was always cropped out of the photo).

- 2: My dog's liter was born December 2015.

- 3: The lady I bought him from said the breeder was from Texas. I acquired my dog in southern Louisiana March 2016.

- 4: My dog's parents were UKC registered, the lady I got him from had started filling out the registration paperwork, but never finished before selling him to me. I live in Illinois and we lost his registration paperwork in the drive back, so he was never registered under my name either.

- 5: I found him on Craigslist, don't remember the name of the woman I bought him from, and would have no way of contacting her to ask about the breeder.

Please let me know if you recognize the dogs, breeder, or house. Any information would be helpful. Thank you!

Edit: I am not looking to adopt. I want a dog specifically from MY DOG'S bloodline.

4 days ago, July 30th, 2026, I lost someone extremely close to me. The grief I have experienced is beyond anything I've felt before. Full on weeping, making sounds when I cry (highly unusual for me) and everywhere I look in my house reminds me of him, triggering wave after wave of hysterical crying. My body is totally drained, so I have been sleeping alot.

Since he died, I have been having horrible nightmares. Or atleast that's what I thought they were at first. They're getting super specific now and I think they might actually be memories.

I am an American woman and have always lived in the states. I am having extremely detailed dreams of Thailand and having lived there. The dreams or memories are mostly violent and I think they might have been triggered by my extreme grief.

The first few didn't seem connected, so I don't remember them as well, but the last two I remember vividly.

1: I am in a house, it's extremely hot and humid and I am sweating lightly. The house has shutters covering window openings instead of glass and they have been pulled down for the night. Men with 🔫 enter the house and are looking for something, but I don't know what it is. They pew pew two men in front of me. I am small (probably a child) and I am hiding in a metal box, like under a metal cabinet or counter. One man spots me, but before he could move toward me I woke up.

2: I am in a dirty, humid room, again the shutter windows, but I think it's a different house. The room has beige walls and it looks like afternoon sun filtering through the slots of the shutters. Again, the shutters are pulled down. There is a single, dirty mattress on the floor and me and three other girls are huddled together on it. A man enters the room, grabs one of the girls by the ankle and drags her out. Me and one other girl try to pry open the shutters on one of the windows to get out. She crawls out the window first and starts running across a yard outside (all packed dirt). When I make it out the window I am sh0t from behind and the last thing I saw before waking up is the other girl looking back at me before she climbs a fence and gets away.

Are these just horrible nightmares, or could they be memories? If they're nightmares, it's weird they're all in Thailand. I don't have any current life connections to Thailand and have never been there. I also don't consciousnessly think about Thailand, so it's just super random and they are SO detailed. I experience them from 1st person POV.

Has anybody else experienced this or heard of grief triggering past life memories?

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