Cant keep a job due to paranoia
Hi, I'm 19 and only have my diploma and my 3 year "diploma" from Vocational School for Horticulture. I have had 4 jobs in the past 4-5 years. Today is my first day for my 5th job with Sheetz. I hate fast food but nobody else will hire me. Ive quit every job because I'm a people pleaser and do whatever someone wants, agree with whatever someone says and when I get tired and say "no" the managers and bosses get upset and harrass me (corner me in the office to ask me questions, yelling and being transphobic) and it is just a waiting game of how long I can take it until I freak out and get too scared to work. Sheetz is a fast paced job and fast pace isn't my thing. I can't handle it.
I quit because I get too paranoid of the "what ifs" and my job at Taco Bell started it because the worker went off his medication and kept coming in and threatening us and we had to keep calling the cops and he went to jail for a little. I have been paranoid that someone is out to get me that I can't sleep at night. I'm anxious and have depression and I can't handle a job. What do I do? I live in Camp Hill, Pennsylvania and only have fast food experience.
I moved out of my parents house due to abuse and I'm living with my friend and her family. I need to get a car and a savings but no job I have I can keep. I wanted to do warehousing and my dad who I sadly still talk to out of fear works at one and helped me. They called yesterday and I was too anxious to pick up the phone. My one chance is gone and I really need money. What do I do? I have possible schizophrenia but don't have the money to get tested but I think its the cause of this all.