Recent Diagnosis
I’ve been formally diagnosed with GD as of today, and I’m spiraling. My first pregnancy ended in preeclampsia with severe features and I was hoping for a redemptive second pregnancy. I wanted four kids but now i’m feeling like that dream is in the process of being quashed.
I feel like I’ve failed my baby - half of my job is to keep my children safe (and the other half is to love them), but my baby isn’t even out of my belly yet and I’m already failing to keep her safe because my body, or the placenta I guess, is not functioning properly.
And then there’s me - this diagnosis changes the trajectory of my life; a higher risk of developing Type II diabetes throughout my lifetime (is my understanding).
This is a heavy, heavy weight and I don’t know how I’m going to walk this road.
I don’t know what to do or think or expect or anything. I feel hopeless. Any advice, positive stories, anything is appreciated.