u/Think_Cry9083

However this season sucks
I used to be masters or at least diamond now I’m stuck in fucking emerald and cause of drives I deranked to plat :/
Every game I have at least 20 kills and try to control space as much as I can but I just can’t do shit
Dmon is so much better than her at diving and a lot of heroes shut dva down and idk if im coping or not but even when I play support I don’t see her being played nor banned anymore (i was gm in support)

As long as I remember myself I always had problems with socializing and expressing myself
I grew up to question my worth and mask myself thanks to my parents that made me very conscious of everything around me

Right now I’m in the military (it’s mandatory) and I started a week ago so I’m in boot camp
My basic training is going to end in the 24th of August and I’ll start a short course probably about system engineering and then I’ll officially start my service

After I graduated high school and started college for 2 years; high school was horrible for me but in college I made a lot of friends and for the first time in my life I felt wanted and like I belong

Now I graduated college and in the military and I’m having a very hard time getting along with people
Everyone are kinda “normies” and I don’t have the same humor as them and I just talk like an npc in a fantasy game to them cause I really can’t think about something funny or interesting to say to them

Also I got bullied cause I lost my military id in the first day… lol

Anyways idk what to do
I don’t even think I can start external therapy and I would have to go to a military therapist which is the same as going to the counselor in middle school -_-

Any advice ?