Days following (possible) first SVT episode - feeling scared, terrified and alone
Happened a couple of nights ago. Did my normal nightly routine and just as I started to drift off I was jolted up by the most horrible anxiety and body sensations I have ever felt. I thought I was going to die and then I could feel my chest and my heart felt like it was trying to escape. My brother called an ambo and I went to the ED. The entire time I was feeling woozy and out of it and not in control of myself. The only other time I felt like that mentally was during this really bad acid trip I had a while ago.
And I figured once the heart issues stopped so would the mental stuff but it’s been two days (I think) and I still feel that feeling. But it’s like nobody gives a sh*t. Not the Paramedics, not the doctors, not my family, not my friends or partner either. I just feel so damn alone and everyone is so unbothered about it. Not to mention the soul crushing realisation that I might have a heart condition that will directly impact what I can and cannot do.
Anyways if u read all this way here’s a medal 🥇 and also how do I ask for support from my partner and family rn because I feel like I really need it but don’t want to look like I’m needy and overreacting. Also sorry if this is a ramble still not feeling great mentally still a bit of brain fog ok thanks bye