My messed up cycle is making me feel not worthy of romantic relationships. Does anyone relate?
In 32 and never had a boyfriend mainly due to social issues. I’ve always had a normal cycle but about 4 years ago I randomly started spotting before my period. This has progressed to me now spotting for a full week before my period, sometimes around ovulation, and then having a full period. So in total I’m bleeding/spotting half the month.
I was causally dating a guy and he invited me over and I was going to say I’m on period (I was spotting) but realized nearly every time he invites me over I’m on my “period”, so I made up a different excuse as I didn’t want to have to my malfunctioning cycle to a man. When I tell my friends about the spotting they seem horrified.
I don’t feel like a normal woman and I don’t want to have a man “accept” my menstrual issues and that having sex with me half the time will include menstrual blood. I would totally understand a man not wanting to deal with that, I barely want to deal with it. It makes me also worried about my fertility.
Due to my lack dating history and now this - I feel like it’s almost like romantic relationships are not meant for me and I should just drop it.