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ok, first tbh I kinda used to think that if reincarnation is real it’s all random and we don’t get to choose the life, and maybe it might be influenced by subconscious,now I’m shifting views…but her my debate:

I see many posts of people talking about suic1de. and they’ve been told that because of that, we‘ll end up in the next life with the same issue because they’re not supposed to.

yet then most of the same people who write this,post stuff about how they are convinced that we choose our life ,planning it etc.

So I don’t get it.

Tbh I think it’s because society hasn’t had learned how to deal with suicidal people yet and that idea that we are going to suffer again, steam from that stigma.

Now I’m going to share my experience but I don’t want sympathy or people feeling sorry for me.

I’m considering it at the moment not because people hate me or I hate myself, it’s just a change in circumstance that won’t be able to reverse let’s say and this will inevitably leading to depression and eent hate myself again (already been there) .

And with each passing day I start to believe that actual we have a fate and that’s mine, as actually I kinda don’t want do it if I could avoided , some friends even tried to help and I almost got saved and as soon I stopped considering doing it this situation progressed to an even worse level like is what I’m supposed to do it, even already started abandoning this Life and for some unknown reason I started to looking forward on my next life ( even if scary as hell because nothing is guaranteed and this action is permanent.)At least I was lucky enough to not have close family members or friends that would be devastated about it.

I mean this isn’t the first situation that made me contemplate the S——— but in ever other case I managed to get out or improve the situation and it was just thinking a bit and never felt my life was over ,was mostly the heat of the situation but on this specific one I can feel it at subatomic level that my current life is over, and for some reason I’m conflicted because like I said I didn’t wanna do it yet at the same time when someone was helping and starte believe that this situation might be averted, I honestly felt sorry and for some reason a little part of me is happy that I won’t be able to fix it so I have a justification for myself.

Again I wrote this NOT because I want people to feel sorry (which it wouldn‘t give me any benefit from it, also it’s not psychological and talking would help) but to point out maybe in some EXTREME RARE case that is what I chose but I also want to point out that most situations can be improved so I discourage others people of doing it because nothing is guaranteed and might regret it in a way.

Also please don’t suggest me to find help as I already tried , just to be told that they actually can’t really help me except talking me out of it and then police showed up, when usually where I come from they don’t send a police car.

Hello,

Unfortunately for some circumstances not due to hospital or family but still circumstances outside my control,I got out of Canada a month after my permited stay.

I got out of my own without any requests from them.

I understand is not the best but will is certainly cause a future refusal for future travel there or I might still have a chance?

ok I’m a 38 years old guy that due to a change of circumstances is considering ending my existence or at least this one, not because of depression or something but because this changes will lead to depression and they are irreversible unlike financial or relationship troubles or something that can get better/improve eventually, this changes will just make hate my life every day more and more,so as I have no family or people that depend on me, I saw “why not” ,I even called the helpline to see if they would think of a solution that I haven’t,but they didn’t, actually I was rat out to the police and I had to tell them that it was just a rant to avoid brought to a mental facility.

anyway I have 2 beliefs of what will happen after we die; First one is that we get one life only then oblivion and the other is Reincarnation.

No offense,but unlike many believers in reincarnation, I don’t believe that there’s awareness “in between “ but it’ll most likely lights out then at some point randomly reborn somewhere.

i well aware of the NDE experiences where people describe what’s in the afterlife, but those are indeed NDE and not “PDE”, so unless someone who has been brain dead for a day and wake up again and tell me otherwise,I don’t take a NDE as a proof of afterlife.

Tbh I also believe that the “karma of good vs evil deeds” ,it’s a human construct, I mean for instance we often condemn some strangers actions as evil but we don’t know what actually was going on in those minds that made them doing that.

I just think it’s all random and there’s nothing we can do, but this is just my personal opinion and I’m not sure if it’s actually like that.

and that what scares me ,that I might end up in a abusive family or maybe born with a genetic health condition etc, I’m not thrilled even with the thought that I might ended with a different gender either, or actually born in a wealthy but cold/distant family.

So now I came to the conclusion that no matter what,there’s no escape,always sucks in a way.

ok someone might say that there’s might different planets or dimensions,which could be true…but again…probably there’s problems there anyway.

or that time is a human construct and we don’t have to be born necessary is the lousy future ahead of us, and that makes me more worried, I mean is ok to born in a modern time,but being born in let’s say 1500? that’s not an happy time

so like I said I can’t find comfort anymore in reincarnation.

and I know this indeed a reincarnation chatroom,I would like to point out that even my other belief of oblivion after death, I mean it’s just piss me off that some people get to live a relatively happy life while others have to endure an horrible one, or die you without a chance.

I don’t find comfort in that either.