30 YR diagnosed 6 months ago
Hello I have no one I want to talk to about this so I thought I might as well post on reddit with a group that maybe experiencing something similar. Ever since I was diagnosed and started treatment I have been on a pretty rapid decline physical and a little bit mentally. Before I was diagnosed I was very involved with projects around the house and just generally more active both at work and at home. I have been feeling really down and lesser compared to how I was and how I am now. I don't like to talk about this out loud to family and friends as I don't want sympathy for them to remember me as a capable person(probably ego involved i am not sure). I have an amazing family which I am lucky to have but I just don't feel like I'm as involved as I could be which hurts me deeply. Running around and picking up my daughter is getting harder and harder and some days I just feel exhausted after work knowing I have to do simple tasks that used to be extremely easy but now feel larger. I feel guilty and try my best to push through most of the time and have been successful but I just fear a day where I won't be able to. I feel guilty that my wife has to deal with so much and she's not healthy either so it makes it much worse because she used to lean on me for support. I am hopeful I will get better and have a positive mindset I know I will beat this but I worry what will my quality of life will be and how I will look at myself. Thank you for listening.